Oh my oh my

I never did zumba last week. I got a bit scared and went and did 90 minutes of cardio instead.  I worked out pretty good this week, I think four times or so.  You'd think I'd be down a lot but only 1 pound this week for a total of five.  I know, I know thats good.  Hey at least I'm not going up five. I try to remind myself weight doesn't come of quick and even though its just five pounds i've noticed changes in my body and i'm in better health by exercising.  Today i actually got up early and went to a weight lifting class at the gym.  Oh my, that hour of class was worse than all my workouts combined.  I'm almost guaranteed I will not be walking tomorrow.  But its good because I hate lifting weights and by doing this I work all muscle groups. My goal is to try stick it out and do it once a week for now.    Being there's only a week left in January I don't think I am going to meet my goal weight, but thats okay.

Just another day

Well a few of us went out for supper last night to a mexican restaurant and ate a meal that wasn't very paleo.  But before we left I was so nervous and anxious and had to do a little self talk about how ridiculous this is, there is always going to be "something".  So I had my meal with an alcoholic  drink and had frozen yogurt afterwards.  Felt bad at first than just realized one meal a week is moderation, and some say that's good to speed up metabolism.  Who knows but I'm not going to lose sleep over it.  I woke up today and had a couple eggs and an orange, back on track and that's the way to do.  I can eat a nonpaleo diet just as long as its in moderation.

I'm going to the gym later on today and am thinking of trying Zumba.  I don't like uncomfortable situations and that is exactly what it will be but I'm also trying to push myself cause I want to find an exercise that I enjoy.  We'll see how daring I get!

Starting Over

It's quite evident my paleo eating failed however, I'm trying not to look at it as failed.  It doesn't matter I'm back to in and doing great!  I started a few days ago on Monday weighing an embarrassing 218.  I was devestated, disgusted, ashamed, etc.  But everyone has a starting point.  I weighed today and was at 214!  The first couple days I went through all those terrible symptoms of not sleeping good and that feeling of being drunk, my head was just not right.  But I'm back to feeling good and I have even been working out a few days a week.  Thats right, my goal is a few days a week.  I'm not making a big deal of it, I'm not setting myself up for failure.  I would say I have a really good life but I'm working on cleaning it up a bit.  Along with that comes I've always felt I'm always taking care of someone else (and I don't even have kids yet) and I admit I get sick of it thinking when is it my turn to be taken care of.  I realized I'm probably to big of a control nut to let that happen and maybe I can look at is leading by example.  I am surrounded by family, friends, coworkers that need to get healthy and I'm going to lead the way.  Family and close friends are aware I eat paleo and each one has a different opinion.  Other than my husband, not one person has asked more about it, asked for resources, nothing.  I'm not the preaching kind so I figured I am going to do my best to change habits, especially when it comes to family.  We do so well at home eating but when we go to (mostly) his parents house everything flies out the window and we become sedentary, way non paleo eaters.

Anyway, my short term goal is 200 lbs by February 1st!

I can do it!